236. Elena - November 15, 2009 [Edit]The more I think about it, the more clear it becomes that 90% of the Fellowship pathology is about making a shrine to homosexuality. As if in Robert’s need to justify his behaviour he had set it all up, unconsciously of course, to make people reprogram themselves but not to become conscious of the world as it is but to adapt to the unconsciousness of his world. It’s quite fascinating to look at the process because people did have to work and did have to change and adapt and use their will and effort but only to make a shrine out of Robert’s gayness: The men becoming sissies and the women becoming macho like. The world as he wanted it and understood it became the aim of all members, working day and night to add another decoration to his entourage.
People inside think they look so good in all that paraphernalia but they are so weird. We all looked so weird. Maybe if in Pathway to Presence they just added “exclusive for homosexuals” of all genders that would make it so much more accurate but the perversion lies in the pleasure of disfiguring heterosexuals into homosexuals and they are masters at it. With the added ingredient of making macho men put that extra flavour of dislike that weird and extreme gay men have for women as one can see in a few of the men still participating in the fofblog who can’t stand posts by women and have no problem in ridiculing them as quickly as possible.
Making a shrine of homosexuality must have been potentially in all of us, unconsciously potential. In my case, having been actively bisexual, it’s obvious why that aspect of Robert’s life tended to be approved more than disapproved but what was in our collective unconscious that played along with it for so long? And fine as that would have been had we put our selves to that aim (for maybe two weeks total?) how did we end up putting ourselves into THAT for almost forty years now?
Hey Daily Cardiac and Company, What makes you think that a shrine to homosexuality is a School of Consciousness? When you stop grooming Robert’s balls do you think you’ll wake up in heaven? Or maybe in Haven and then you’ll make a shrine to pornography and you’ll all masturbate in front of the pictures Girard will be showing you by then? THAT is what members and ex-members are protecting? YOUR friends inside having a little gathering?
It’s taken us almost three years to look at this side of the Fellowship without buffers and there are still quite a few to take off. How wonderful to be able to look at sexuality without the shame of pornography! Even that sexuality. To look at it without judgement for its not the sexuality what is being judged but the manipulation of people’s lives to accommodate them to Robert’s identification with DESIRE. In the Fellowship everyone is so quiet about it, UUUUuuuuuuuuh, OoOOOooohhhhhh, everyone tiptoeing to hide the shame we carried inside and ironically worshipped outside. Just inverted the process of shame and made a shrine of it we were so afraid to look at it. Well, we’ve seen it now! Hey Bobby, you can zip up your pants now and leave, we’re done with this show! Peepee wasn’t long enough no matter how much beebee it had!
But that’s not the problem. If Robert had been open about it from the beginning he might have actually made it somewhere besides getting peeed on in the bath tub and made a Goddess in male clothing in the meetings but he and all those involved actually hid it from the beginning including all those ex-members on the fofblog like Old FOF and so many others. THEY HID IT! What on earth for? Weren’t they in California where it was legal and possible and viable?
This getting peed on doesn’t seem like a way of showing those boys how much he values himself? How much he’s actually suffering? Does he then tell them it’s work on humility?
This was what was missing up until now. This is the axis around which everything revolves. AND IT WORKS!. It works perfectly. Instead of separating from their lives through non identification as the System offers, members have to separate from their judgement towards Robert and use each and every tool to not identify with their own judgements and negative emotions towards him and his position of authority and denial of their presence. Not identifying, not expressing negative emotions, not lying with opposite Is about it, not being in imagination about what is wrong, not inner considering about it and EXTERNALLY CONSIDERING the teacher all the way to hell is what is actually practiced but not just that, to top it all we had to develop positive emotions around it. We had to transform our horror into love for the man number eight, second to Christ. WOW! That works! But there’s not only nothing conscious about it, there is such a corrupted process of imagination that it crystallizes in the formatory apparatus and works only in as much as it doesn’t move a millimetre in any direction. It turns on itself until it shrinks people’s functions and in that horror suicide is a great relief. People continue to apparently live but like bees or ants, like insects. It is the closest phenomenon to a beehive and still ex-members in the fofblog think they are doing these people a favour in not stopping it.
Were we conscious enough we would be stampeding inside and bringing each member out as if they were burning alive! Because they are!
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