Elena- Paul levy

290. Elena - November 23, 2009 [Edit]

I am totally unconcerned about the idea of not mixing Systems or ideas with each other. I find it important to realize that all true Systems are connected just as we are as human beings. Inwardly connected and separate only physically like threads on a carpet that are all bound to the net.

The aberrations presented by Robert and Girard of the Work are worth looking at from different angles and I personally find these references from other, much more experienced people than myself, of great use. Then I can weave in my own experience with theirs and place the Fellowship where it stands out. If members ever care to look and answer for themselves the following questions, they might understand how the System is being distorted to enslave them deeply. I continue to work in the hope that that will be so.

There are three aspects about this text that connect to the Fellowship experience.

http://www.awakeninthedream.com/artis/GodTheImagination.html

According to the alchemists, the products of our imagination are not immaterial, vaporous phantoms, but are something corporeal, having a “subtle body” all their own. The alchemists were realizing that the philosophers’ stone was a subtle energy body, a super-celestial body, the “star” in humanity, which is the interface between mind and matter. The imaginal, subtle body is a transcendental idea that is neither purely physical nor spiritual, but rather, is a hybrid in that it partakes in, encompasses and is comprised of both the spiritual and material. The subtle body is both the same as and different from each of the two sides that define it, as it is more than the sum of its parts. To quote Jung, “Imagination is therefore a concentrated extract of the life forces, both physical and psychic.” A hyper-dimensional portal and mercurial medium, the subtle body is a magical elixir, the product of the imagination that influences, bridges, links, and connects the spiritual and the material worlds. Jung comments, “Somewhere our unconscious becomes material, because the body is the living unit, and our conscious and our unconscious are embedded in it; they contact the body. Somewhere there is a place where the two ends meet and become interlocked. And that is the place where one cannot say whether it is matter, or what one calls ‘psyche.’”

Elena:
In my humble opinion in the “System” the two ends meet in self- remembering. It brings the physical and the spiritual into a consciousness of their unity. If the consciousness of that unity is not realized, it is not self-remembering. How then do Robert and Girard come to stand on the separation between the lower and higher, the king of clubs and the king of hearts? Consciousness and life? That’s interesting: “Consciousness and life”, that is exactly what they separated. How do you equate that friends inside? Did you join the Fellowship to separate consciousness from life?———

The materialistic prejudice of assuming matter objectively exists separate from the psyche immediately banishes the intermediate realm of subtle bodies to seeming nonexistence. But, nevertheless, the subtle body is a real presence. Its presence is present even in its seeming absence. It has a genuine weight, which means the subtle body leaves an “impression.” Once both physics and psychology touch the untrodden, untreadable reaches of seemingly impenetrable darkness where physis and psyche become indistinguishable, to quote Jung, “then the intermediate realm of subtle bodies comes to life again, and the physical and the psychic are once more blended in an indissoluble unity.” In a genuine conspiracy, the material and the spiritual worlds truly “conspire” with each other, as they “co-inspire” each other, which is to say that they breathe together as one.

Elena: This is beautiful! They co-inspire each other! Like a breathe of life pouring “light” out of itself: grace, gratitude, dignity…
True work can only bring to real positive emotions. Why has the Fellowship Cult crystallized in pointing out the separation of lower and higher and not brought its teacher or members to anything positive besides external decorations?—–

We have so lost touch with the profundity of the imagination that the outer world seems to appear solidified in form, which is merely reflecting that our imagination is concretizing. Having lost our acquaintance with the aesthetics of the imagination, we become “an-aesthetic,” numb to our feelings and cut off from the heart, anesthetized from ourselves. Disconnected from the creative organ of the imagination, we lose our sense of aesthetics and our capacity to appreciate beauty. Instead of symbolizing our experience so as to creatively express and liberate it, we become seemingly held captive by a self-reinforcing feedback loop inside of our minds which continually generates a literal, particularized, and concretized viewpoint, both towards the world and ourselves. To the extent that we lose our connection with the ever-flowing novelty and majesty of our own creative imagination, we forget our fluid nature, becoming stunned into immobilization, alienated from and a trauma to ourselves. The play of and our play with the creative imagination, however, is the very act that cultivates, empowers and transfigures the subtle body into healing nectar which dissolves and dis-spells our seeming trauma.

Elena: I haven’t seen a better description of what happens in the Fellowship yet. I’ve been screaming about that a lot but without being able to formulate it so clearly. People who are brainwashed cannot use creative imagination. Their minds must repeat the dogma over and over again to accommodate to the status quo. They cannot “symbolize” the experience. There is no creativity in the Fellowship cult from the moment Robert approves or disapproves EVERYTHING people can present. The conditioning THAT implies already has an effect on the artist’s creativity. They were beautiful nevertheless, they tried so hard to make it work… but it was soulless in the Barbie paraphernalia of Fellowship alchemy. The only performer who really had it was Brian Ganz who was not a student and was so much freer than any one of us. Robert’s conditioning on what to chose and the style in which it must be performed or presented take out the individual’s spirit and tries to uniform creation, taking the Art away. The few events that Robert does not personally condition, he does not assist leaving a trace of disapproval and lack of interest in the member’s work and specially freedom to “be”. He wouldn’t even go to Girard’s play on Socrates!

In the process of recovering from the cult experience I am finding that having enough confidence to act from my self raises the state of well-being. To move not “taught” movements but whatever movement comes from me at that moment is one good example of that because even with movement it seems I have been “imitating” every one else for ever without giving my self a chance! Dancing I’m trying not to make the normal steps of no matter what style but free the movement from the traditional steps and there is something wonderfully liberating about that. Likewise with emotional and intellectual life!

I mention this because we’ve seen very few ideas on how to recover from the cult experience and the most effective seem to be finding a different group of people to support one but parallel to that, the idea of recovering one’s connection to one’s self and its creative aspect seem just as necessary. The good thing about the latter is that it’s available!

Light digesting!