Hello Ton,
If you cared to read me carefully you would understand what I am saying and how I mean and use the word monarch as much as many other things, but you don’t care to read or understand, you just enjoy putting me down with sarcasm or that so called aggression that you call humor. So much lowlessness that you indulge in… only hurting your own self: US.
It is more than fine for me if we don’t agree and I don’t need to call you names for disagreeing like you are so eager to call me. There is an essential respect that you cannot bring yourself to hold and that leaves very little room for a dialogue.
You are well treated here but you do not treat well. You have a page for yourself because you deserve it. It is plenty even though you look down on it. Were I to not consider you worth it you would be simply banned.
You think that I think myself superior and am narcissistic because I don’t agree with many things you or others say and I don’t think that is a narcissistic or superiority complex. On the contrary, what motivates a person to work as I do is something totally different. It is a worthwhile struggle in the process of becoming. I am studying and exploring a subject and make good effort in that whether you or anyone else values it. What I don’t understand is why, since your valuation is nil why do you keep participating here? Why is it Ton that you cannot bring any beauty from within yourself and share it with the world but delight on putting everything I stand for down in every one of your posts? Why have you lost the capacity for empathy?
The fact that you find so horrifying that I say We are One and speak for you is just your identification. I am speaking for myself. For me, We are One. Am I not entitled to live by that if that is my choice? Do you have to call me names because I so choose? That We are One is a fact to me and it is fine with me if for you it is a slogan or however you wish to put it. You have not understood a word I said in that post. It is a complex one, worth reading carefully. If You don’t want to hear what is actually in it, so what Ton? You haven’t wanted harmony in these two, four years, why would anyone wish that from you? Can’t I just love you with all your complaints and attacks? Like a grumpy friend that repeats himself over and over again and still matters to us because we’ve gotten used to his negative presence?
You think I can barely tolerate that you exist but that is because you are unwilling to acknowledge every positive expression that I send out to you. You can neither take nor give positive things, forgive or apologize but with all your negativity you can’t get yourself to leave, like a couple in a bad marriage.
I am at least happy to know that you are here because you choose to and we will continue to disagree for a long, long time because agreeing is not a sine qua non condition to belong to the Public Square. As long as the lowlessness doesn’t descend into crime and abuse I can take a great deal of disagreement.
What you really seem to like is to talk about US, personal things, inner conditions. You seem unable to move beyond US and yet hate the fact that We are One. You never actually address things in life objectively, you always have to put whatever you say in the context of teaching me a lesson or demeanoring what I say, in other words, you can never move beyond our subjectivity. And then when I actually address you like this, you think I am insulting or hurting you. It’s a difficult and delicate thing especially because I am now convinced that there is so much love. If I had been given some of that love when I was as negative as you are, my suffering after the fellowship wouldn’t have expressed itself so violently.
Love is in the connectedness and whether the expression of that connectedness takes a negative or a positive bent, the connectedness keeps working on the being and people become part of each other and begin to realize their Oneness. We are One Ton, We Human Beings are One Being. It is fine if you do not agree and don’t wish to be part of that Oneness and in not being conscious of it, justify all the separations you wish to have with people, but you don’t have to call me names because I am not interested in the lovelessness that you so enjoy.
This Oneness is the most magnificent experience I’ve ever had and cannot turn myself against it. My words are like mud in a pigsty in relation to that Oneness. I’ve failed to live up to it enough to continue failing because you so wish it. This Oneness makes Kings look like toddlers and toddlers like Kings! That we are all Monarchs is a reality for me and if that is not in your world or can fit in it, I am sorry for your world in which people allow to be treated less than a human being.
In time we will realize that Democracy is the right of individuals to every right that was in its times, alloted to kings. The right to speak and decide, to be treated with decency, to serve and be served by people in a State of “love”, that is, to serve with one’s work for the development of ‘life’. To belong to the Kingdom of Human Beings without racial, national, social or academic separations. To love and be loved. To die at the service of the whole and to be honored in one’s death for one’s life and work was legitimately valued. To be graceful and grateful, to have the pride and the humility of being One with the Universe, One with every realm of Existence, One with every living and deceased soul. To treat with dignity and be treated with dignity for One is dignified and so are All others and so is Life itself. To walk the path of compassion, not in the sorrow of guilt but in the pride of being. To take responsability for one’s mistakes and sufferings and stand up again and again like a hero and face the struggle that is put at one’s feet and in one’s hands. To Love. To Be.
You are a free man Ton, you can choose to be something else. Millions of people, millions and millions of people might take many generations to realize the consciousness of our humaneness but there is no other dignified path for the human being.
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