I’m again working as a private English teacher and in Colombia most people in the middle-upper classes know English well having studied it from kinder-garden but hardly anyone speaks it properly, so a lot of my job is to re-structure the bad habits and re-install the right constructions.
It has been very interesting to observe that even after knowing the right structures and answering correctly in the drill, for some period the student will go back to the old structures when relaxed not only in the bad constructions but in the accent. Observing this it seems very similar to what happens with people in cults… fortunately and unfortunately. Fortunately because no matter how brainwashed, the old structure will stay there even if latent, potentially available for recovery and unfortunately because once the indoctrination is adopted willingly, it will take a similar process for the member to deconstruct it and that is what is so difficult, fearful and painful. All the centers are affected in the process but much more delicate than the centers is the process endured by the self itself, the I, for the I is gradually dismantled in cults to guarantee member’s dependency and “re-mantling” it is a very delicate and long process depending on how extensive the damage is.
Just as the whole process in the cult takes place through the gradual re-conditioning of the centers, through separating them and their functions from the self, what is very interesting to observe, and extremely beautiful, is to realize that the recovery of the self also happens with the “re-conditioning” of the centers and through the activities, the I and the centers reconnect. Even if the person doesn't know the meaning of the activity he or she is performing and depending on the activity, it will shed it's life on the member, that is, the activity itself has a "life" or "power" of its own and reconstruct or continue to destroy his or her many layers, centers or dimensions. What's interesting is that the activity will shed different degrees of "logos" or "life" depending on the person's attention and intention. To verify this which seems to have a great deal to do with the octave of impressions, one simply needs to pay attention to the quality of different activities. Playing tennis for example is a very different experience to playing the piano and they are both equally gratifying for the respective centers but the same applies to all activities.
I think this is what I mean about knowledge in essence and true personality: that in essence we are and we do but are unconscious about our being and doing while in true personality we can understand the richness of being and doing. The difference is not in the levels of energy experienced in either conditions (states?), but in the degree of consciousness of them. In other words, an experience is not less great in essence than in true personality in terms of its energetic quality but in a mature human being the meaning of the action is much more profound to the I. And then again, it doesn’t mean that in essence the action is any less profound, simply that in essence it is a given that is taken for granted valued then only when it is subsequently lost in the process of living as if life itself where the process of making our selves objectively conscious of the life that arises from our connection with the world.
Perhaps the problem was in the word knowledge for what I'm really talking about is consciousness that has nothing to do with the knowledge we tend to think of in the intellectual center.
I guess I'm just shy to use such words but I also think that if we've worked and given any valuable steps it is fundamentally important to share our experiences not to show off how far we reached, which at least in my case is incipient to what is possible, but because other generations will profit from our information.
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