On the 44th anniversary of your death

You have been resting for so long Oh mother

that I would like to come and wake you up 

like we use to when we were kids and you stayed in bed 'till late

I remember when you died forty four years ago

I thought that you’d be dead for the whole of eternity 

and I could hardly bare that length of time with my bare nine

But you're as alive as I am, 
in that dimension you've paid the price 

When we met not so long ago

you told me without words that 

In that dimension we were always together.

I already knew it but had never thought
that it too applied to you and me

It takes a long time to live up to one's knowledge

and I am still far from accomplishing it as it deserves

but every day there's a little more light

not only in the Sun

but Us

I've never worked as hard as recently

or enjoyed my self as much

I think you are proud somewhere 

which means you'll get strength from the strength within

Pride I know is not like pride

in that dimension

or gratitude

but grace could almost make it

if it were not a word but the state of being

To be...

Words...

but still

How would you like me to honor you on this day?

My brother is not home

I could try my sister

Your sister?

I could try her too

My father?

Your husband?

There's a magic triangle in two forces that give life to one being 

but we hardly ever think about that

as if there were too many people to realize how sacred life is

but it is

The triangle is pointing upwards 

Our parents sit like roots

at the base of our being

and enact the forces of life

in all dimensions

Our ignorance lies in the fact that we live in the consciousness of the most superficial dimension but our being expands within as much as without. We can actualize our Selves in all dimensions by acting from the dimensions within in the dimensions without or from the dimensions without to the dimensions within. From our most inner self to our most outer being in which we are apparently separate selves: the life we share in this natural dimension as much as in the complex social fabric that holds our destinies. They are no less sacred than any other dimension. But we are experts at making hell of it in our unconsciousness.

We manifest the consciousness or unconsciousness of our Oneness in how we connect to each other. How we allow our world to be organized, 'hierarchisized' instinctively for the benefit of a few is a problem of the overall consciousness of our selves put together. It is no one's fault but everyone's responsibility. To understand our Oneness and live it out in our social world protecting 'life' with 'love'. 


What are you doing to protect it?

If we look at how we are hurting it today, it is easy to realize how criminal we are. We are all responsible for the crime that is abundant in our world. It is the reflection of our poor consciousness. No one can separate from responsibility, from suffering or from grace. But the most mature amongst us are more responsible than the rest.

We are laws within laws

and should know our selves, 
as much as our lives,

sacred

Touch with the life within

and give life

in the act

On your day 

I wish to sit with you for awhile

and in that act

actualize our Oneness