Life!

There was a big opening today that'll keep me busy the rest of this month and my eyes are still bothering me considerably. I will get back to exploring when they've rested well.


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"Life"

Another aspect of what I am trying to say is that false ego lives on putting other people down. Once it convinces itself that the individual is not conscious, it doesn’t stop there, it justifies all acts of light or crude cruelty against that or those individuals because false personality like true personality has to “live itself out”. In our times “consciousness” that is, being conscious or not, has replaced other forms of fascism in which people can simply be discarded because they are “not conscious”. This is delicate and widespread not only in cultish environments but in institutions trying to hold a hierarchy of “superior” and “inferior” beings. “Not conscious, not educated, not Jewish, not German, not civilized, not Latin, not “of the clan”. This “clan” mentality is totally against individual consciousness and as long as we cannot respect each other as individuals objectively, that is, as human beings, we cannot experience life objectively. We will continue to manipulate the right of people to BE through mechanisms of POWER. That is false personality at its best or egoness at its best or the “devil” in action. It’s force is real and achieves objective consequences in the reality of human lives. People who do not conform to that kind of status quo are “vanished” from any establishment that upholds such mentality.

When we come to respect the objective reality of another human being, his and her Self, everything will fall into place and all our institutions will change vertically the way power is handled. Our social phenomenon are such for one and only reason: the unconsciousness of OUR objective reality. The decadence of human values today is the great percentage of our own subjectivity, what we are trying to remember when we “remember our selves” is our “objective”, “spiritual”, “human” origin. Life is the theatre in which we live out our consciousness as much as our unconsciousness and every act we perform is an aspect not only of objective reality but our objective and subjective state of being. They cannot be separated. These separations are aspects of the schizophrenia of our times. We, in our times, are all carrying different degrees of it. No one I know including my self is UNIFIED but it is possible to clearly observe when we are actively creating more separations and justifying them and struggle to “hold our selves together” individually and socially not only for a more conscious world but for a more human world.

We cannot discard a Picasso or a Van Gogh because they burnt their women once or twice in their own madness or cut their ear off and committed suicide. The beauty, the humanness of their work IS “life”. We cannot stop to appreciate their suffering and struggle to be in a moment in which the human being was and is powerfully struggling against the “clan” consciousness and its hierarchic power for individual objective consciousness. Our wars and struggles are real struggles, we have not put down monarchies for the fun of replacing them with dictators, we have not raised a common man into a dictator because we wanted another King to run our lives, we did all that because we wanted the individual human being to be a conscious King: “Democracy” (that we are far from achieving). The failure of all dictators is the struggle of the common individual towards consciousness. Their failure and abundance today gives us an inkling of how far we are from understanding the world objectively. We do not have a right to separate our selves from whole nations like the Germans or Japanese or Italians because they jumped into the front row of the battle and failed drastically. We ALL failed and fail drastically but we only fail completely when we stop being human with what survives. Each individual life does not come to fruition until one can recognize the struggle within one’s self, the struggle of objective forces fighting to express their power. The fact that most of us fail does not make us less human. We die like flies but leave our struggle to make it easier for others to win: that is life objectively.

Thank you for the opportunity to clarify myself about this subject here.

  

To Life!

For Christ's glory, this is you at last!

WOW! You can hear! And you can talk! And we can share! Like humans! And you can give the whole of yourself or give your self whole, do you realize that? That you are not keeping anything back? That there's more of you there than any other time without pretense of anything?

You didn't turn my words upside down and interpreted the wrong things, that's brilliant love, brilliant and you've no idea how wonderful that is this morning after months of nightmares.

I can barely believe it! Does it mean only you and I can communicate because we're too much for the others? They don't see the beauty or the pain or the love or the human? Just the "brain damage"? They are wrapped around their silicon bags of propriety and cannot extend out a hand and touch, touch, touch with their soul?

Oh ......., please let me call you by your name which is beautiful and yours, why want any other.

You've allowed us to speak like humans in the Public Square! Do you realize what that means? I had almost given up, this morning nothing seemed as welcome as the third floor window! Most left after I asked them to and I had no hope that even you would not but you're here. You actually hear!

The news about Kate is great. I'm delighted for you. The more we touch in our own capacity to create the more we heal. One of the aspects of the "damages" is the feeling of worthlessness which from one angle is absolutely true because the contact between my self and my creativity is not valued enough, it doesn't reach home enough, it is undervalued. That was why I asked you to speak from your soul rather than give me poems because although the poems were great and particularly insightful of the state I was in, I needed you, you, your presence is what is healing! The dialogue directly with your soul. Healing for both of us. For you because you bring your self forward and hold me and for me because you bring yourself forward and respect me  as you embrace me. You help bring my self out by not avoiding your own self to come forward replacing it with the poems. There will of course still be plenty of times for sharing all the beautiful poetry that you have made yours but hearing you in your own words has been fountain water! And you sound like a man that any woman would be happy to be with. My gratitude embraces you with equal humility.

You mention the fof blog and that it's rubbish! I wonder why you perceive it as such. I follow it like I would follow an old friend's life and it delights me to see them talking. I feel all those things need to be said. Everyone needs to tell his story and look at it. Bounce it against the circle of humanity and receive it back, transformed. I am not looking at what they say as much as how they say it and don't you find good that they talk so civilized? Too civilized perhaps? No, that's not the problem.  Perhaps they don't need to give themselves as wholly as you and I do and in what they do give allows them to process the dialogue more gradually but equally fruitful. I really am not personally bothered by the way it is moving. The fact that closing the Fellowship down is not the issue does not matter. That has already been said and it is there in the air. It is important for them to digest what they are digesting so that they can come to realize why it needs to get closed down. We've all different ways of getting to Rome and for some it's just as important to walk! You and I might like to take the rocket but have a little difficulty knowing how to land it!!! So good to laugh!

Of course, the real problem is that they've proved as deaf and blind as the Fellowship as a group by banning me without being willing to embrace me as you've just done so the chances that they'll develop towards enough integrity to do what is necessary are meek but the soul's capacity to change and readjust is great as you have also proved. I had completely lost hope in you and your willingness to jump from side to side as seemed convenient and while that might happen again for we repeat our selves, I will continue to remember that our hands have held together strongly, solidly and gratefully!

A bright blue sunny sky is shining through the third floor window, it's time to get up and about "to life"!