Where now?

It's been very good to work and research all this material and come to understand a little about where we are today and where I wish to stand.

After seventeen years in a cult, recovering the sense of who and where I am, hasn't been easy. Three years looking at "life" (as we use to call it when inside the Fellowship, that "terrible" place where the six billion dead slept their living death, (that no one actually believed but gradually got so used to hearing, that it) didn't seem like a good place to visit) have been a wonderful trip!!

The more I explore the more I connect. The more I connect, the more I feel my self. The more I feel myself the easier it is to be with other people. For a long time it felt like my soul had frozen. I'm glad I've screamed so much to make it respond. I was like crystallized in hell. I've been living on my own for the past three years with hardly more contact than these blogs. Tonight I sat outside and played guitar with the children in the neighborhood who made up songs. After a year of studying with a teacher it is beginning to sound like music. We had a lot of fun. I came to live in a low income neighborhood because people still connect and play outside and I needed that to come back to life.  It is a pleasure to be here!

If any of you have an idea of where you'd like us to go, please let me know. I'm all game! It's time to work together or move on! Write poetry for you when the inspiration allows or dialogue when we're open to love!

Big hug, thank you to those who listen and those who fight and those who speak. Your presences have been the greatest gift.